It has been 1 & a half year. I've abandoned the project that was born out of the intention to update my friends back home and progressively intensify whilst I was job hunting.
Then came the job and saying goodbye to all free time...
Besides holding a demanding "9-5" job that took on average 10 - 15 hours a day, I took the liberty to learn 2 new languages; during weekends or weekdays evening. In addition to that, I got addicted to learning how to stand on my 2 hands. Then came the weekend projects - meal prepping for the next 5 days.
I lost contact with the friends that I created this blog post for. I lost all time to even update. I utilise those free time by staying in bed a little longer. Weekends swoosh by, days, weeks, months, years. I took on a job to afford my lifestyle but my lifestyle that I so desperately wanted to cling on to is constantly threaten by work.
I've not gotten far to where I want to go in life; work was fulfilling until a certain extend before turning into under appreciated dreadfulness. I had been toying with the idea to make a come back in this blog. Minus the pretty pictures, adding all these adult realness sprinkled with some psychological hurdles.
I am still clawing my way out from the hole I fell into....
Planning is in progress.... Loading...
28 Sep 2015
17 Sep 2015
There's a saying in Chinese - Humans are born kind, education, social influence are to blame for wrong doings. I plead the opposite, arguably because I am not a nice person.
Humans are born evil. Education & Social Influence taught us to be kind to each other.
Assuming every human being are born neutral - a blank piece of paper. Everything written on it are absorbed from the moment this human was born. It's easily arguable that society are responsible for all those misdeeds, wrong-doings, bad stuff. Our society aren't exactly model society (which is something i like about) so its hard not to place all the blames on it.
There are all kinds of people, events - fortunate or unfortunate, to affect at least one individual on the second basis. How many times do you wished for a better world every time you switch on tv to watch the news? How about reading what's latest on twitter? Facebook? In this era of information overload, society is very vulnerable to all the blames that happen to it.
However, there are good people in the society as well. I've witnessed enough noble & selfless acts to be convinced that there are good on earth. But not enough to be convinced that Humans are wired to be kind. We are all wired to survive, even if that is to sacrifice another human being to ensure our own survival.
What breaks my heart even further is we are now no longer doing disgusting acts not in the name of survival. Perhaps I am too much of a pessimistic. But I will never gave up looking for kindness in this huge mess of a world. I believe there's good for every evil.
12 Aug 2015
This month seen more death than usual. Whether its people that I am close with or not, I'm deeply sadden. Suddenly my problems don't seem to matter anymore. Suddenly I have the urge to just say what I've held back. If I've wronged you in any way, I am deeply sorry. If I've love you, I can't say "I love you" enough. So here it is.
LIFE IS SHORT. APPRECIATE.
13 Jun 2015
10 May 2015
31 Mar 2015
The Four Loves
“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken.
If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal.
Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements.
Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness.
But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change.
It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.
To love is to be vulnerable.”
- C.S. Lewis